Sunday, September 21, 2008

In Need of Prayer

I sit here at the computer with aching heart and weeping eyes. We just received word that this weekend our baby was stillborn. The birthmom had an infection and was put on medication. They thought all was fine, but she was experiencing some difficulties on Saturday and ended up in the hospital. Her water broke and the cord was wrapped around the baby's neck and there was nothing they could do. We found out today our baby was going to be a little girl.

Though she was never a part of my body and I didn't even know if she was a boy or girl, she was still mine in my heart. I had imagined holding our baby, caring for our baby, watching Mike be an awesome dad, and having the awesome responsibility and privilege to rear her to be Christ-like.

Please pray for us. God is good all the time even when I hurt. He does have a plan and a purpose and while I know this to be true, that does not change the fact that my heart will still ache for the baby we never were even able to meet and my eyes will still weep.

15 comments:

Momto5 RachelJoy Photography said...

prayers and lots of love coming your way.

My heart aches and knows the pain. I don't know your pain, but I know Loss of a child pain. Im so sorry!! I lack words. just send hugs.

Brownells said...

We're so sorry to hear of your awful news--know that we are praying for you. We understand losing a child and all those thoughts and tears. We also know the Lord will not leave you comfortless. We're just so sorry

Carrie said...

Oh Sandra, I'm so sorry. You and Mike will be in my thoughts and prayers . . asking God to comfort you and give you a special peace over the days ahead.

The Jackson's Journey said...

Mike & Sandra,

We're very sorry to hear this news... Of course we will be praying for you. God can give us comfort and peace during the most painful times, and it is our hope that this will be the case now.

Scott & Leah

Amanda T said...

Sandra, my heart aches for you and I will be praying for you during this time. I know that loosing the hope of having a little one can be so hard. (Tom and I have gone through 4 miscarriages.) May God comfort you as only He can.

Autum said...

Praying for you.

Jenny said...

oh, Sandra. We will be praying. I am so sorry.

dan and cheryl forbes said...

We are praying for you, Sandra. I am trusting that the LORD will be your comfort.

Mary Ann said...

The pain of disappointed expectations, huh? I am so sad to hear your news. I will also be praying for you & Mike. The Lord knows...He will comfort & continue to lead.

Anonymous said...

I just sobbed when I read that you've lost the little girl that would've been yours. There is grace for every trial.

Rebekah Downs said...

Oh, Mike and Sandra, I am so sorry for your loss. Praise the Lord that you have Him to bring you comfort. We will definitely be praying for you both as you try to heal and move on.

LMLogan said...

I'm so sorry!! praying for you guys!!

Anonymous said...

Sandra and Mike we just wanted you to know that we are praying for you. We love you. We don't have words to express the sorrow we feel for you.
Dick & Carlene

Pam said...

Oh, I am so sorry, Sandra.

"Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life."
-Prov. 13:12

Matt & Nicki said...

Sandra, I come on your blog sporadically, and came on tonight and saw this post. Just wanting you to know I will pray for you. . It hurts to lose a child, and God will give you grace poured out upon grace!