Happy 22 Weeks. I celebrate each week because it is a week more that God has allowed my body to carry the babies. There isn't any real big news since my last post since I haven't had any doctor's appointments and won't have the next one until Monday, March 19th. I continue to struggle with sleeping because I just can't get comfortable and my back hurts. Last night during one of my short snooze sessions I dreamt that something was wrong and I had to go to the hospital. I distinctly remember crying and saying over and over again "it's too early" as I was being wheeled down a hallway in a hospital bed. Then when I started moving around this morning, I noticed a new achy and sore feeling going on which has me a little nervous. Here I am presented with another opportunity to trust God with my babies. I know it was a just a dream last night, but my human nature wants to turn those pangs of pain and soreness into something much more than that.
From the beginning we have known that God is the Giver of Life. These babies will be born according to His will and in His timing. If that is today, God is good and knows what is best for us. If that is 12 weeks from now when the doctors prefer, God is good and knows what is best for us.
As Christians, we are blessed with the gift of this knowledge. So much of what we have been through in the last 6 years seems impossible to deal with outside of the gift of the knowledge that God is in control.
So we continue on and wait to see what He does. When fears and doubts arise, I return to Scripture to comfort me and remind me that (Psalms 84:11) "For the Lord God is a sun and shield: the Lord will give grace and glory: no good thing will He withhold from them that walk uprightly."
He will give us what is best...and only He knows what that will be.
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